Sunday, July 4, 2010
Life is Good
Today is the 4th of July and I wish I had something really profound to say about our Country, our freedom or our troops but I don't. I mean Yes I'm so thankful for the Country I live in, my freedom and for all the men and woman that do so very much to keep it that way but that is how I feel everyday. And although I don't have anything else really great to say about that subject I did have my own little enlightenment the other day. So as Greg's deployment gets closer and closer I have gone through many different feelings. First I was more in denial....that he would never really have to go. That they would start pulling everyone out right before it was Greg's turn. Once I realized that wasn't happening I went through a state of worry....about him, me and the girls. I also was sad. Sad to think of all he will miss while he is gone and how much the girls will change in a whole years time. Then I absolutely hate to admit this but I started to get angry at him. And I actually started to feel like I should pull away from him in order to make things easier on myself when he is gone. But thankfully I have pushed those thoughts out of my head and lately I have just felt a little numb about it all. Not really worrying, sad or angry just.....nothing. Then yesterday and even more today I had the most wonderful feeling and thoughts come over me. I am excited! Excited for Greg to go and have such an amazing experience. Excited to hurry up and get this all started and excited at what a wonderful homecoming it will be when he returns. I feel that I am a well rounded, organized, independent person and I can do this. I am so pumped! Even as I write this now my heart is pounding with excitement for my new take on all of this, and as funny as it sounds the phrase"BRING IT ON!" just keeps entering my mind. I was totally and completely cut out for this. The life of a an Army Wife is my calling. I want to do this and do it well. I feel so blessed and my life is so good and so wonderful. I love where I live, all my friends and family and my great ward. I have so much to be thankful for and I feel like I am just where I am supposed to be. I feel that I am almost on a high right now and yes it may go away in a few days and I may go back to feeling a different way but not today....not right now. I just had to write this all down so I will remember the way I feel today. Life is good. I am happy and everything will be not just OK but WONDERFUL!
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Andrea, That is one of the most amazing posts I have ever read. your outlook is so inspiring and I can feel the strenght and power of Heavenly Father while reading it. You were at a cross-road and could have easily gone another way, but you chose to be strong and happy and Heavenly Father has poured his spirit out to you because of the choice you have made. You passed a test that many would not have passed, and I know you will continue to be a strong force and example to many others. I admire you and love you so much. Thank you so much for being so heroic yourself and sharing it with the world so everyone can know where the strenght of our military really comes from...the hearts and misnds of our loved ones at home who pray for those in the field and keep the fires of freedom and home burning here. Love you Andi.
You are right Andrea, you can do this and you will grow in ways than you never thought possible before. Mike is finishing his second deployment and I know and have felt everything you have described. Yes it will be hard, there will be days when you just want to scream, but you will also see and recognize the blessings the Lord will give you and an added measure of the Spirit to help. I was just thinking the other day how even though at times it's been rough, I would not change the experience--either one. All that we experience in this life is for our good.
You have a great outlook and I'm sure it is a wonderful help and support to your husband.
Jennifer (Harsch) Beadner :)
All I have to say is Amen to what Aunt Rachel said, really Andi reading what you wrote makes me proud of you and Greg for how far you guys have come together spiritually and it is because of that strength that you will be able to get through this year and any trials that might come along for you or Greg. I love you and Greg and am so proud of the wonderful sacrifice the both of you are making to ensure not only our wonderful countries freedoms and liberty but the sacrifice Greg is going to make to help people in other countries be able to have these freedoms and liberty that we have. I love you both.
All I have to say is Amen to what Aunt Rachel said, really Andi reading what you wrote makes me proud of you and Greg for how far you guys have come together spiritually and it is because of that strength that you will be able to get through this year and any trials that might come along for you or Greg. I love you and Greg and am so proud of the wonderful sacrifice the both of you are making to ensure not only our wonderful countries freedoms and liberty but the sacrifice Greg is going to make to help people in other countries be able to have these freedoms and liberty that we have. I love you both.
It's interesting to hear you say "you were made for this". I believe that is true also, if anyone can handle this you can, and you will handle it with grace, and a postive attitude. I'm sure you will have some down days, some days when you worry, and feel lonely, but I know you will be lifted by not only your family, and friends, and ward members, but truly by angels. They will be around you and those sweet little girls and Greg. Me and your Dad love you all.
Loved that post. Love you. Your right...bring it baby, bring it. :)
Love the new blog, thankyou to you and your family for sacrificing your time and lives to make this country the wonderful place that it is. I am so grateful for our freedoms and the people who provide them.
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