Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Deployment

Well it's finally that time....deployment has begun. I have to say that I am actually feeling some relief today. The past few days leading up to him leaving have been really hard for me. It was like I had anxiety, sadness and guilt all mixed together. I had anxiety over going to the airport and having to actually say goodbye. I was sad for my girls and the fact that we will miss him so much and I had guilt that I needed to make his time with us perfect, but I wasn't doing a good enough job. Like I constantly had the thought, "this could be the last time he gets to eat this or watch this or do this with you and the girls." It was an awful feeling. So yesterday my stomach was just in knots. When we finally got to the airport it was better, I think I just needed to get there. I don't know why that made a difference but it did. The army reserved a hanger so we could visit inside or out on the runway before take off. Here is Greg with his Brothers and sister.






We were all pretty happy until they announced we had 10 minutes before they had to board the plane. Everyone said their final goodbyes and cried a little but we all stayed pretty composed. Thankfully.




They look so happy for saying goodbye :)



This was the only moment that I cried. I knew that breaking down just wasn't something I wanted to do or felt that it would help in anyway so I wipe away those stupid tears and gave Greg one last kiss before he headed off to the plane. I feel that we are on the verge of a whole new experience and if anyone can do it's our family. I am too strong willed to let this get me down. And I am just so proud of Greg. I know he will do his job well and what a great day it will be when he comes back to me.

13 comments:

Suzy Stokes said...

You are totally right Andy, you are so strong and you have so much support! This year will fly by and next thing you know Greg will be pestering you to go play. I love your honesty and candor. Im sure your blog helps a lot of women understand whats happening on the other of the world. Love you.

Ty and Jenn said...

Those pictures are so sweet of the girls hugging Greg. You really are brave and I know you can do it! You have those two little angels to help you out each day and that will help the time fly faster. I think about you all the time!

The Larsons said...

Andrea you are way to strong for your own good! I would not even know how to say goodbye to Blaise..PLEASE let us know what we can do to help you. HAng in there and before you know it he will be home.

Shauna Velasquez said...

That's exactly what I was thinking yesterday..."if anyone can do it it's Andrea". You are a strong person and even though your girls will miss their dad they are in good hands :)

Shelli said...

I loved the post and the pictures are so sweet. I want copies for my little patriotic corner, I am so glad we can be out here while this time passes...and it will, and Greg will be home. That will be such a joyous reunion. We love you all so much.

AofF13 said...

Good Girl, Andrea, Good Girl!

AofF13 said...

And the honesty means everything.

Lacy said...

(Greg and my husband were in ROTC together so you might remember me) but I SO remember having to send Jeremy off like it was just yesterday and I know going through his 18 month deployment made our love, marriage, and appreciation for each other so much stronger. Best of luck to your family; the visits and homecoming reunion are absolutely the BEST reunions!
(I saw your blog from a mutual friend's blog)

p.s. your girls are cute!

Tom & Michelle said...

Oh what a sweet post! And it made me cry but what else is new? Andi before you know it this year will be gone and done with and you and Greg and your sweet family will e much stronger for it! you both are in my prayers daily! I love you!!! and I am so proud of Greg!!!

Tahnee said...

:(

Cody Gochnour said...

Your photos turned out well. Do you have one of Greg and I?

Rachel B said...

Andrea, I have been meaning to read this post for a long time. I saw it there on the side of my blog for a long time and just couldn't bring myself to read it...I felt sick to my stomach thinking about it...it was almost the same way I acted when my friend had cancer, it is just to hard to think about, so I avoided it. But instead of the sadness I expected to feel when I read it, I just once again got the feeling of strenght from you. YOur positive attitude well rounded personality are an example of all and make me want to be a better person. I love you so much and I am so proud of you and of Greg. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Love you tons!

Amber said...

Finally I've checked your blog...only yours cause my computer time is up. Or that means neglecting my kids time is up. Such a tender post. I didn't cry till I saw the hugging picture. SO sweet. You'll be just fine. I love you all!